All is Well

All I Have Needed…

September 23, 2024 By Shelly Durkee

I turned the page on another year this past Friday.

The years seem to be moving faster and faster as they climb higher. I find myself far more keenly aware of the passing of time today, than ever before that I recall in my life.

We spent my birthday together, my husband and I, exploring South Dakota. Neither of us had ever been, though it has been on our travel list for years.

It was nothing short of wonderful. Breathtaking. Stunning.

We visited many places – Mount Rushmore, Crazy Horse Memorial, Wind Cave, Jewel Cave, and Badlands National Park. I thoroughly enjoyed each place – the history, the geography, the uniqueness.

But it is Badlands National Park that gripped my soul.

From one of the highest overlooks in the park, I could see forever. The expansive sky above me stretched far into the distance. Being able to see the sky always settles me – being able to see the sky for miles and miles helps me to feel small, in a good way. I can breathe. I can exhale a prayer of pain and grief, while breathing in a prayer of gratitude for God’s sovereignty and faithfulness.

I’m so glad our God created the sky. I truly believe it is a foretaste – a sample – of the brilliance we will see when God calls us home. A new earth. A new heaven. A new sky. All of which glorify God.

We decided to enter the park as evening fell, to catch the sunlight. We had read that sunsets are stunning in the badlands, because the fading light and shadows cast bring out the colors in the rock formations.

It is true. They do. O, my soul – what a sunset.

While my guy was taking photos (he just upgraded to a new lens), I found a quiet ledge to sit on, with my feet dangling over the vast crevices and canyons. As I sat there, I had the very keen sense that the sun was setting on one year, and I was beginning yet another. The year closed with such mixed feelings – as with most years, there more moments of tremendous joy….and equally tremendous grief. Successes to celebrate, and failures to mourn. Days in which I sensed God’s presence, and others where I wondered “Where are you, God?” as my old, familiar frienamy Doubt occasionally returns to tug at my mind and soul.

Sitting there in the last warming rays of the sun, I watched the shadows lengthen and the insects begin their nightly chorus. Then, in a split second where the very last curvature of the sun met the peak of the mountain in front of me, it was alit as with a scorching blazing fire – and then it was gone.

And the sky took on a deep, soothing afterglow, as if it was experiencing the now….and the not yet.

The sun – and the moon, and the stars – in their courses above, joined with all nature in manifold witness.

And I, too, acknowledged in that moment, yet again – yet again – yet again – that great is His faithfulness.

His faithfulness will be great throughout the next 365 days – come what may. He does not change. The unknown lies before each of us like this tremendous book of days. Our lives read the pages, and while we may think we know the story’s plot, like any truly good book that we cannot put down, we do not. We do not know what comes next, with each turning page. The triumphs, the pain, the fear, the joy, the exciting, and the mundane.

The days in which we will sense God’s presence strongly.

And the days in which we will not.

But while we do not know the plot, we do know this: the story of God’s mercy, grace and faithfulness.

And as sure as the sun set on my birthday in a blaze of wonder and fire, so shall God’s mercies be new every morning, as we journey through this place that is not our home.

All I have needed, His hand has provided.

Great is His Faithfulness, unto me.

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
there is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
as Thou hast been, Thou forever wilt be.

Summer and winter, and springtime and harvest;
sun, moon, and stars in their courses above
join with all nature in manifold witness
to Thy great faithfulness, mercy, and love.

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth,
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow:
blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!

Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
all I have needed Thy hand hath provided:
great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

-Thomas O. Chisholm

Book Review: Recovering the Lost Art of Reading

June 18, 2024 By Shelly Durkee

I love to read.

I always have loved reading – from the time I was a little girl I have always had my nose in a book. Sometimes to my detriment; I’ve tripped more times than I care to count because I was trying to read and walk at the same time.

I also love books about books and reading, so I was very excited to dive into “Recovering the Lost Art of Reading” by Leland Ryken and Glenda Faye Mathes, which I received as a part of the Crossway Book Review program.

I was not disappointed.

Ryken & Mathes’ book is an insightful exploration into the transformative power of reading, blending literary critique with spiritual guidance. This book is not just a call to return to reading but an invitation to rediscover the depth, freedom, and joy that comes from engaging deeply with texts. Part of their thesis that I found as a good reminder to myself is the importance of selecting good books. Ryken and Mathes advocate for discernment in reading choices, urging readers to seek out works that are not only well-written but also enriching and edifying. They provide practical advice on how to identify literature that will stand the test of time, literature that challenges, inspires, and educates.

A significant portion of the book is devoted to the spiritual dimensions of reading. Ryken and Mathes explore how reading can be a form of spiritual discipline, enhancing one’s understanding of biblical texts and deepening one’s faith. They highlight the value of incorporating biblical principles into reading practices, suggesting that approaching literature with a biblical worldview can enrich the reading experience and provide profound insights into human nature and the divine.

The authors draw from a wealth of biblical references, illustrating how scripture encourages the pursuit of wisdom and knowledge through reading. They suggest that reading, when done thoughtfully and with discernment, can be a means of experiencing God’s truth and beauty. This adds a rich layer to their advocacy for reading, presenting it not just as an intellectual activity but as a holistic practice that nurtures the soul.

One of my favorite chapters in the book addressed the freedom to read – I walked away from that section refreshed and renewed in my commitment to spend time reading without allowing the nagging guilt that sometimes creeps into my reading time to disrupt it – thoughts like “I should be getting something done” and “Is this the wisest use of my time?”; and even “I’m not learning anything profound from this book, I’m just enjoying it – is that wrong?” Recovering the Lost Art of Reading argues that true reading allows individuals to break free from the shallow engagement typical of digital media, providing a space for contemplation and deeper understanding. This freedom is not just about leisure but about liberating the mind and spirit and fostering intellectual and emotional growth.

“Recovering the Lost Art of Reading” is a compelling call for a return to thoughtful, intentional reading. Ryken and Mathes blend literary analysis, practical advice, and spiritual insight to create a guide that is both inspirational and practical – and well worth the time to read.

Summer Reading List – 2024

June 12, 2024 By Shelly Durkee

I love Summer Reading Lists.

I think it stems from the year I wanted to win the huge Cat in the Hat stuffed animal which was the grand prize in our small town’s library Summer Reading Program. That year, the theme was bingo cards with squares like “Read a book about your favorite animal” and “Read a book by an author you have never read before”; – for every bingo card you completed, you received a ticket that you put your name and number on, and dropped into a fish bowl. At the end of the summer, a name would be drawn from the fishbowl, and that lucky son-of-a-gun would take the Cat in the Hat home with them.

I was no dummy, I knew that the very best option to make that Cat mine was to complete as many Bingo Cards as I could. And I was successful – I blew away my competition. I don’t recall just how many Bingo cards I completed and turned in, but I know it was far away more than the kids in second, third & fourth place. For being in first place for number of Bingo Cards completed I received five extra Cat in the Hat raffle tickets, and my name in the Fairfield Ledger – the town newspaper.

I KNEW that Cat in the Hat was mine. KNEW IT. 100% certain.

But, somehow the Library staff did not know it; and instead pulled out the name of someone in the grade above me; who had only completed 3 Bingo Cards.

I was devastated. Angry. I was robbed! I may have even shed a jealous tear.

But – it was still the coolest summer reading program I’ve ever participated in.

Nothing profound in that story; just a way to intro my 2024 Summer Reading List.

Here are the books I hope to complete between now and September 1; maybe something listed here might pique your interest!

Shelly’s 2024 Reading List

The Matter of Things by Iain McGilchrist

Summary: This book explores how our way of thinking affects our understanding of reality. McGilchrist argues that Western culture relies too much on left-brain thinking, which is analytical and abstract, leading to a narrow view of the world. He believes we need to balance this with right-brain thinking, which is intuitive and holistic, to gain a fuller, more meaningful understanding of life. The book combines insights from neuroscience, philosophy, and art to suggest that integrating both ways of thinking can help us see the world more clearly and deeply.

My Thoughts: Fascinating read. It does need to be read slowly – not because the concepts are difficult, but rather to truly absorb the content because it is a different way of thinking. McGilchrist does an excellent job boiling things down to something even I can understand and file away in my brain. If you want to be challenged in your reading and your physiologic understanding of how our minds work – this is a great place to start.

Recovering the Lost Art of Reading

Summary: Leland Ryken and Glenda Faye Mathes discuss how modern life, with its constant distractions, has made it hard for people to read deeply and thoughtfully. The authors argue that we need to return to slow, reflective reading to understand texts better and improve our empathy and critical thinking. They offer practical tips to help people develop habits for focused, immersive reading. Through stories, literary analysis, and advice, the book highlights the importance of reading as a meaningful and enriching activity.

My Thoughts: I am reading this for two reasons: 1. My love of reading & 2. As part of the Crossway Book Review program. I’m really enjoying not only the content of the book, but the way the authors have laid out the information – from order of topics to the conversational style and comprehensive span of the topics. Highly recommend if you are a reader, or what to learn “how” to read more widely and with discernment.

Pilgrim’s Progress (Legacy Edition) – by John Bunyan

Summary: This book is an unabridged version of John Bunyan’s classic Christian allegory, first published in 1678. This edition maintains the original text while making it easier to read with updated language. It includes classic illustrations that enhance the storytelling and offer visual context to the narrative. The story follows the journey of Christian, an everyman character, as he travels from his hometown, the “City of Destruction,” to the “Celestial City,” facing various trials and meeting different characters along the way who represent different aspects of the Christian faith and human nature.

This particular edition stands out with its clothbound hardcover, providing a durable and aesthetically pleasing format that is suitable for collectors and readers who appreciate classic literature. The inclusion of illustrations adds an additional layer of engagement, making it accessible and enjoyable for a modern audience while preserving the depth and richness of Bunyan’s original work.

My Thoughts: I confess, I just finished this book a few days ago – but since it was completed in June, I am adding it to this Summer Reading list. This edition is beautiful. Stunning. The cover art is stunning, and the book looks great on my shelf next to all of my other classic literature editions.

But more than that, I appreciated the ease of reading, and the cross-reference of scriptures in the margins of each page, corresponding with Bunyan’s text. I’ve read Pilgrim’s Progress before and honestly did not come away with much impact. Not so this time; the last few pages had me in tears. Deeply moved, thinking of that day when we who are Christ’s children are welcomed home by our God. If you’ve been meaning to read Pilgrim’s Progress, purchase this edition – you won’t be disappointed.

Peace Like a River by Leif Enger

Summary: This book is a moving novel about a family’s journey in 1960s Minnesota. Eleven-year-old Reuben Land narrates the story of his brother Davy, who escapes from jail after being accused of murder. Led by their father, Jeremiah, who performs miracles, the family sets out to find Davy. The book explores themes of faith, love, and justice, combining beautiful prose with a sense of hope and the miraculous. It’s a heartfelt story about family loyalty and belief in difficult times.

My Thoughts: This is my first Leif Enger book, and it has not disappointed. I’m nearly finished with it – and so far I have enjoyed Enger’s characters and his overall writing style – so good. This won’t be the last book I read of Enger’s.

One Lost Soul: Richard Nixon’s Search for Salvation

Summary: This book by Daniel Silliman examines the personal and spiritual journey of Richard Nixon after the Watergate scandal and his resignation. The book looks at his efforts to find redemption and inner peace, exploring his complex character and personal faith. Through interviews, historical accounts, and Nixon’s own writings, it provides a detailed look at his search for meaning and forgiveness in his later years.

My Thoughts: This book is not releasing until August 8th; however, I’m including it here because I have pre-ordered and am looking forward to reading this as I wrap up my 2024 Summer Reading plan.

Nashville’s Mother Church – The History of Ryman Auditorium

Summary: “Nashville’s Mother Church” is a book about the Ryman Auditorium, a famous music venue in Nashville. It tells the story of how the Ryman has influenced country music and the city’s culture over the years. With pictures and stories, the book celebrates the Ryman’s history and significance.

My Thoughts: Earlier this year I was in Nashville for work, and I had an afternoon to explore some of downtown Nashville, including a walk-through tour of the Ryman. Finding the little bit of history I learned on that tour fascinating, I ordered this book to obtain the whole story.

Whatever You Do: Six Foundations for an Integrated Life

Summary: “Whatever You Do: Six Foundations for an Integrated Life” is a guide that offers practical advice on balancing different aspects of life. It presents six principles for integrating personal, professional, and spiritual aspects, aiming to help readers lead more fulfilling lives.

My Thoughts: I received this book as a gift from the Made to Flourish organization, whose goal is to close the gap between Sunday worship & Monday work. I tend to be overcommitted to work; with far too little integration between my life as a Christ follower, and my life as a committed employee. Looking forward to what I can learn from the authors of this short book.

The Good Gift of Weakness: God’s Strength Made Perfect in the Story of Redemption by Eric M. Schumacher

Summary: “The Good Gift of Weakness” explores how weakness can reveal God’s strength, drawing from stories in the Bible and personal experiences. It shows how embracing weakness can lead to spiritual growth and a deeper understanding of grace.

My Thoughts: Received this book as a part of the book’s launch celebration. Like so many others, my default response to most things is strength – Be Strong. Be Confident. Handle <insert situation> well. While this is true, I often feel very weak – weak in my faith, weak, in the midst of challenges, weak at work, parenting, etc. I’ve read some of Eric Schumacher’s works before; looking forward to this offering.

My Dwelling Place – and My Peace

May 27, 2024 By Shelly Durkee

It’s Memorial Day Weekend. A time to honor those who gave their lives so we can live in freedom. This was made more poignant to me this year, after a trip to Arlington Cemetary last weekend – row after row after row of white-washed headstones stand watch in their solitary assignment to honor forever and mark the death of a soldier whose body lies in its shadow.

While not over-the-top patriotic by any stretch of the imagination, I never want to forget why I am able to go where I want, worship where I am called to worship, read scripture unhindered, believe openly what I know to be truth, and associate with friends, neighbors, family and colleagues that are in my life, without fear of retribution, sanctioning, imprisonment or death.

There is much to be grateful for.

Usually when a three-day holiday rolls around, we pack it with all the things we need to ‘get done’ that we haven’t had time to do – cleaning out the shed, household projects, de-thatching the yard, catching up on mail, or throwing a huge holiday family party.

Not this year.

Our lives have been non-stop for the past three months. I have taken a new job with a professional services organization based in San Diego – a great career move, but not without the usual “Am I making the right decision?’ angst, or the “Now I need to come up to speed on these new projects fast!” anxiety. I’ve also battled some very strange sickness 3 times in the past 4 weeks…landing me in the ER on one of those occasions, severely dehydrated.

Additionally, our two youngest graduated from college two weeks ago – which meant a big family fun bash. So. Good. And the kid’s grandparents have been in town – always a joy to be with them. So much goodness in celebrating together.

And my ex-husband was released from prison, after 14 years.

It’s been a whirlwind of activity, joy, excitement….

….and also renewed grief and anger and a myriad of weird emotions, over the prison release.

There has barely been time to breathe.

So, we – my guy and I – have taken this weekend to rest and regroup. To breathe and to sigh. To bike ride and hike. I’ve taken time to remember who I am, and who God is. To gather my thoughts, to write and write and write, to settle my soul.

It’s been glorious. And that’s not a term I often use.

I’ve spent hours out on our very hot deck, under the biggest deck umbrella my guy could find – soaking up the heat of the new summer rays…soothing the tension in my neck, my shoulders…and my mind.

I’ve watched the birds come to visit our feeders – chickadees, bluebirds, yellow finches, Carolina wrens, hummingbirds, cardinals and so many that I cannot identify. I’ve delayed going back inside until well after darkness has descended, choosing instead to sit together among the frogs, crickets, and other night sounds in our backyard. I’ve also read mindless books. Interesting books, but mindless nonetheless. I’ve captured my thoughts about the last couple of months in writing and locked them away with a key.

A wonderful weekend.

A peaceful weekend.

A dwelling weekend.

I’ve thought a lot lately about the concept of dwelling. Not just living….existing in a time and place, but dwelling. If I dwell someplace, I abide there…..I am safe inside that place. It has become familiar to me – dear to my soul and a comfort to my mind. It’s where I run to, when tired, hurt or angry. Or when I am scared, uncertain, and overwhelmed.

But it is also where I go when I sense grace, mercy and joy.

My God is my dwelling place. He is my strong shelter; the rock to which I cling.

I recently came across Micah 5:4-5 in other writing I was working on. At the time, I was in the midst of the joyfulcelebrationangstworryoverwhelmedangrygriefproudbeautiful days of the past 2-3 months. Reading this passage was a drink of water to my, at that time, joyful yet fearful and worried soul:

4 And he shall stand and shepherd his flock in the strength of the LORD,
in the majesty of the name of the LORD his God.
And they shall dwell secure, for now he shall be great
to the ends of the earth.

5 And he shall be their peace.¹

Micah 5 is a prophecy about the birth of the coming Messiah. It is words of hope to the weary and waiting Israelites. It’s a reminder that the Shepherd-King is coming…and that he will stand and shepherd…or care for…those he calls his own. It’s also a declaration that there is coming the ability to dwell securely, for this Shepherd-King is mighty.

In taking a closer look at Micah 5, I discovered that the Hebrew word for dwell used in verse 4 is yashabu, which is created from three words – yud (י), shin (ש), and bet (ב). These three letters together, literally become “the work of returning”.

O, my soul.

How often do I stray away from my safe place – how often do I finish reading scripture and praying, and then jump into my work day knowing that I am not truly abiding in Christ. How often do I try to muscle through the stuff; persevere where there is no need to persevere because He calls me to rest in Him – to trust Him.

I needed to be reminded to do the work of returning to the security within my Savior’s arms – even in the midst of uncertainty about the future.

Even in the worries of health and jobs and parenting young adults.

God has been my dwelling place. He is my dwelling place. I need to be reminded of these words sung at our wedding from the very depths of our souls, as we stood at the alter together as a family – all six of us – knowing what God has carried each of us through and knowing that He would continue – and has continued, and is continuing – to be our dwelling place:

You’ve been our home
You’ve been our shelter safe
For young & old to generations past
We stand in awe of a God so great
We stand in thanks for your faithfulness
O Lord, you’ve been our dwelling place
(Tommy Walker – Make it Glorious)

I love our house – but it is not my dwelling place.

Rather, my secure dwelling place in my God.

He is my peace.
He is my peace.
He is my peace.

Another Hebrew word often rendered “dwell” (though not used in the Micah passage) is shakhan or shaken. It means ‘to settle down’. I’m sure that it is referencing something like to quit wandering and find a home. We even use that phrase in today’s English – “They are going to settle down in Virginia.” Or, “I think they may be ready to ‘settle down.'”

But tonight, I take comfort in this Hebraic translation of settling down. I’m thankful to God, my peace, for using this beautifully quiet weekend at home, at rest, and in His holy presence, to settle my mind and soul.

Settled joy. Settled dwelling in Him.

Amen, and Amen.